I saw my doctor today and after wearing a holter monitor because my heart is making an odd beat, he now wants me to have a stress test done. Not the kind that one walks on a tread mill, but the chemical kind. I’ve had a bad experience with one of those some years ago, and to be honest even the thought of it is scaring the hell out of me. I have to try and not think about it. Hard to do, but necessary. What is next? (deep sigh).
My oldest son who is to graduate in a month, decided to move out yesterday. It came as a total shock. It makes me sad. I know they all leave the nest and venture out on their own, but this situation is a rash move on his part. He apparently is staying with a friend who graduated last year. The house is going to be repossessed and the friend’s mother already moved out. What my son was not thinking about, is the fact that he has no job, he left with only 15.00 to his name and where is he going to go when the house is indeed not in the mother’s name anymore. I know, I know…they have to learn on their own, but he could have stayed here at least until after graduation and he got a job. He doesn’t even have his car, as the tranny went out in our truck and it’s in the shop getting fixed so my husband is driving his car to work and back until tomorrow. I keep worrying about what he is eating, or will eat…and all the other “mom worry’s.” Everything from dental floss to deodorant, and toilet paper, shampoo… costs something. 15.00 isn’t going to last long at all. Mainly I worry about his health. I suppose I have to pull up my big girl pants and accept the fact that he has to learn on his own, but the little mom in me is so very very sad. I just wish he would have been more prepared and had a plan. His room looks so….Empty. Excuse me while I go cry more.
My youngest daughter will be going to her first prom soon. It’s not like it was when I was in school. Now, the girls don’t anxiously wait for the guys to ask them to go to the prom. Nope, they either do the asking or they go as a “girl date.” My daughter of course is really excited to be going, and to be honest I’ve missed the shopping for prom dresses, taking a daughter to the hair salon and doing their make up. My oldest daughter was sort of a girly girl. My youngest…not so much. The two are different as night and day, but with a lot of the same traits, if that makes sense.
I’ve saved all of my daughters formal dresses, thinking I could use the material for something. Some are big and poofy, some are made of very little material, as the fashion indicated back then. Unfortunately my youngest daughter loves the dresses, but she and her sister are not even near the same size. It’s a shame in a way to have bought these dresses only to be worn once and then put into a garment bag, only to sit there in the closet. They are the kind of dresses I can’t alter and I even though I must admit I’m a great seamstress when I want to be, I don’t see a way to take any of these dresses apart and make them into a different style that would fit my youngest girl.
We’ve been looking for dresses online and going to the mall (something I hate to do.) getting an idea of which dress my dear growing up daughter (sob) wants to wear. I got an idea to look not only at prom dresses, but evening dresses as well. Perhaps if we got lucky, we will find one that can be worn again on down the line and my closet won’t keep filling up with dresses that are never seen again once put in there. Hey…one only can hope, you know? It’s such a waste to have these beautiful dresses and not have a purpose for them after the prom or formal is over. I could sell them, or give them to someone who needs one, but it seems that if I try, I will hear all kinds of stuff about wanting to keep them as a “just in case.” Just in case what??? LOL!
I’ve been getting tired of Facebook and all the changes it has been making. I’ve wanted a way to keep in touch with my friends, weed out the people who I rarely ever “talk” to and yet still write my small advice paragraphs that people ask me about. My son suggested web hosting. I had never heard of it, and I still am not sure how it works, even though my son tried to explain it to me. Quite frankly, he doesn’t have patience with people who don’t know computer talk and the ins and outs of the things that pertain to the computer. It’s one of his bad quirks, just because he is a “computer geek” and knows just about anything there is to know about them and the various sites available or services that one has an option to use.
I got on my trusty computer and started using it to figure out what it was my son was talking about. It actually was rather slow going for me. I kept plugging away, reading and listening to little videos, then trying to figure out what the heck this was all about. I have to say that sometimes I could just reach up and shake my dear 19 year old, for not explaining thing properly to me. I think sometimes he likes to make me do things on the computer myself, to learn so when he leaves the house, I don’t keep calling him up and asking him to do things for me. It’s an easy out for me, what can I say? LOL! I did come to a familiar word I knew eventually. It had to do with Windows hosting. At least Windows I know, and when I clicked away, I got even more advanced information about what my son was trying to explain.
Clicking more I came onto dedicated server hosting, but that was really out of my price range. I must admit though, this whole web hosting idea comes in a variety of prices and services in case I ever learn what I’m doing enough to pay the money to have my own page.
I woke up this morning to a spectacular sunrise. Even though the weather guesser says that it’s not going to be really very warm outside today, the sun is shining full force, making me look around my house and see all the dust bunnies I missed while dusting yesterday. If I can get all my housework done today and everything else I have to do, I’m going to try and sit outside on the back deck where the sun hits most of the day and there is a semi wind break, to get some good ole Vitamin D in my system!!